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Updated this paragraph on 6/26/00
Well, so it's been 3 years since I said I would BRB.
Much has change, while little has stayed the same.
For my birth day, me daddy got me this 'puter for
my birthday... heheheh...
Now I am slowly getting back online and looking into
a world I had all but forgotten. The internet was my
life at one point, then in faded into the background
like so many other things.
I suppose I have a confession to make. I let my love
of smoking pot consume too much of my life and of my
time. I lost much along the way, yet much more came
along to fill those gaps. Yet as I look back, I am
striving to retain those things I held dear, yet let
slip through my grasp.
Theatre was a huge part of my life, but with getting
stoned everyday made this endevor very difficult.
Now I have a child (not the reason I quit) it will
make getting in touch with these lost arts a little
slower in starting, I feel as though I am reborn.
Okay, yes. It has been brought to my attention that
I have a tendicy twords the Dramatic, yet I feel if
I channel that energy more twords acting and theatre
I jus might keep the friends and family I have and
hopefully stop alienating them.
Ah, one can only hope.
How many of you believe in astrology? Zodiac?
I am a Leo, with a Sagittaris rising...
For those not infored, that pretty much means,
I am kind, loyal, generious, with a strange sense
of humor that tends to hurt those I love. I don't mean
to... I find things funny, and share them with others.
EVERYONE does silly things that perhaps is seen as
embarassing or a downfall... years ago I found the best
way to deal with such things is to laugh. Laughter is
the language of the soul, it's healthy to let it bubble
up and spill out in peels of joy.
Suppose not everyone feels that way. I just feel that
living in lies may be simple, and simple is bliss,
shit, why go against tradition when you can admitt defeat
and live in decline? Suppose it doesn't stay that simple.
I like the truth and will quote it where ever I find it.
Has anyone heard of the Decline by NOFX?
CHECK IT OUT!
REMEMBER.
" Learning
is finding out
what you already know.
Doing is demonstrating that
you know it.
Teaching is reminding others
that they know just as well as you.
You are all learners,
doers, teachers. "
'"Donald," I said when I got to the field,"I have come to the
conclusion that you just don't live in this world."
He looked at me startled from the top of his wing, where he
was learning to poir gas into the tank. "Of course not. Can you
tell me one person whoe does?"
"What do you mean, can I tell you one person who does. ME! I
live in this world!"
"Excellent," he said, as though through independent study I
had uncovered a hidden mystery. "Remind me to buy you lunch
today... I marvel at the way you never stop learning."
I puzzled over that. He wasn't being sarcastic or ironic;
he had meant just what he said. "What do you mean? Of course
I live in this world. Me and about four billion other people.
It's YOU who..."
"Oh God, Richard! You're serious! Cancel the lunch. No
hamburger, no malt, no nothing at all! Here I had thought you
had reached this major knowing-" He broke off and looked down on
me in angry pity. "You're sure of that. You live in the same
world, do you, as ...a stockbroker, shall we say? Your life has
just been all tumbled and changed, I presume, by the new SEC policy
-mandatory review of portfolios with shareholder investment loss
more than fifty percent? You live in the same world as a tournament
chess player, do you? With the New York Open going on this week,
Petrosian and Fischer and Browne in Manhattan for a half-million-
dollar purse, what are you doing in a hayfield in Maitland, Ohio?
You with your 1929 Fleet biplane landed on a farm field, with your
major life priorities farmers' permission, people who want ten-minute
airplane rides, Kinner aircraft engine maintenance and mortal fear
of hailstorms... how many people do you think live in your world?
You say four BILLION people live in your world? Are you standing
way down there on the ground and telling me that four billion people
do not live in four billion separate worlds, are you going to put that
across on me?" He panted from his fast talking.
"I could almost taste that hamburger, with the cheese melting..."
I said.
"I'm sorry. I would have been so happy to buy. But, ah, that's
over and done now, best forgotten."
Though it was the last time I accused him of not living in this
world, it took me a long time to understand the words where the
handbook opened:
If
you will
practice being fictional
for a while, you will understand
that fictional characters are
sometimes more real than
people with bodies
and heartbeats.'
page 101-103
ILLUSIONS
the Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah
By Richard Bach
*auther of Jonathan Livingston Seagull
This was a wonderful book,
it really made me think about a lot of stuff.
It's a book I recomend you all to read when you
are ready, but then, I suppose you won't really
read it untill your at that point, so do enjoy!
Imagine
the universe beautiful
and just and
perfect,
Then be sure of one thing:
the
Is has imagined it
quite a bit better
than you
have.
Come and sign the book of dreams, write down your thoughts and hopes, fears and
fantasies... ah, the hell with it, it's just a guestbook, duh, so sign it.
*EvoGrIns* or I'll track you down, and... and...
nevermind, too much work...
ZZzzZZzzZZZzzzZZZzzzzzzZZZZZzzZZZZzZZzZZ.......
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What is life?
What is death? What is your take on it all?
Write me.
Zendia@hotmail.com
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*I like this part, it's staying*
Waiting here a life time,
by the pool of life
by the pool of death
by the pool,
I wait for you
taking deep breaths
as time does not exsist
an eternity has gone by
and I wonder why
but it does no good
i wait by the pool
of life and death
waiting for you
do you even know?
do I wait in vain
or are you stuggleing through
to get to me?
I wonder.
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